Lonely at Heart

A Short Story by G.S.Vasukumar

Rahul walked, thinking about what had happened to him. He loved her so much. But she left him for someone who had more money and property than him.

"It's so stupid," He said to himself, "that the girls go for boys with money and boys for girls with beauty. Why should I feel angry? It's really nice that she left me. Now at least I'm free again. Free to do whatever I wish to do. I'm the ruler of my life. No one…no one can rule over me…. not even love…but I loved her so much…she shouldn't have done this to me…she shouldn't have done…"

She had such beautiful eyes…her smiling lips which produced beautiful dimples whenever she smiled….her black hair..her graceful slim figure…her sweet body fragrance…her gentle touch…how could he forget her? He became more and more depressed thinking about her.

He took out a cigarette, lighted and inhaled it with one puff. He remembered the promise he had made to her, that not to smoke again. He was about to throw the cigarette away.

"Dame her, why should I bother now?" He asked, "It kills you! I know…I know..but what's the point in living anymore? And for whom? I shouldn't have fallen in love in the first place."

He would be now enjoying her company like the he did before. How could he forget her non-stop chattering? He used to forget everything whenever she spoke and just listened to her. Now, who shall speak to him? No one…just no one..all of a sudden he felt as though someone had pressed the 'Mute' button in his life.He took another puff.

He was now lonely at his heart. It frightened him.He had wished that he could marry her and have kids. He had built many such dreams with her in his mind and heart. But now she had shattered all his dreams and broken his heart.

"I feel like killing him for snatching her away from me. But she may go to someone else. Better I kill her…Why should I? So that she doesn't cheat anyone else..But I can't do it…" He thought, taking another puff and throwing the cigarette away.

Suddenly, someone pushed him to the side real hard. He was about to fall down.

He turned and saw the rushing train on the tracks upon which he was walking till now. His heart almost skipped a beat or two.

"What the hell do you think you were doing?" shouted a stranger, who had pushed him away. "Thank God, I was here! If not, you would have been dead by now!"

"Thanks…thanks a lot!" He said smiling at him and going away.

It would have been better if I had died, he thought. Suddenly, the thought of tomorrow came to his mind.

Oh, God! To be confronted by yet another day? Another day of solitude. Another day remembering the pain. Why doesn't the world end this night? It would be so nice if it happens..Let me forget her and love someone else. Why? To be cheated again? He reached the sea-shore. Then:-

"Would you like to spend the night with me?" asked a young lady.

"How much?" He asked her.

"Five Hundred Rupees!" She replied.

"Here! Take this money and go away!" He said, giving five hundred rupees to her.

He went and lied down on the bench and closed his eyes.

She could not go. She felt sympathy for him. She went, lifted his head, sat down, placed his head on her lap and started patting him gently.

"Didn't I tell you to go away?" He asked opening his eyes slightly.

"Shhhhh! Go to sleep. I have no where to go." She replied continuing to pat him.

He closed his eyes. "Promise me that you won't leave me and go." He murmured.

"No, I won't!" She said bending down and placing a kiss on his forehead.

The End